|Danny Boy, 9 months|
I've actually asked my self this a lot. Especially after taking two long breaks from it and then returning two times! I started this on a lark when my friend Lesley told me about her blog and suggested that I might really love one and should start it.
Life got really busy about that time. I was newly pregnant with Danny Boy and just starting to realize that maybe my oldest son wasn't "neuro-typical". We went on a long excursion to California which severely limited my computer access- so there's the first break in my blogging adventure. The second break started (and lasted a very very long time) when Kekito started Early intervention. I was so desperate for his outlook to improve that I poured all of my time into his therapies. Well... all the time I wasn't exhausted at least, my last pregnancy really wiped me out badly.
So once the dust started to settle after Danny Boy was born I realized that I had been thinking of my blog over and over both times I was away. It was something I missed. It was something I was not content to just stop doing forever.
So it made me ask why am I doing this? What I really think most is that even if no one is reading, it makes me feel heard. It's like my own little diary were I can put all my thoughts into the world; my catharsis. It's amazing to be able to look back at everything and be able to be proud of something I've accomplished for myself- lately I've really lost myself in motherhood, marriage, and autism. I've had zero time for me and have lately been feeling like I am mourning the loss of "Jill as we knew her". But getting back into blogging and keeping it up(!) are really helping me to re-establish that time an sense of being. I love being able to look back and see what all has gone on in my life. I like seeing how my son has improved; how much both my boys have grown.
Blogging is something I love and will continue doing for me and my family! And hopefully 1 or 2 interested readers.